Getting to know myself better...

Yesterday I was on Forbes website and ran across an article titled "The 35 Questions." The 35 questions that were in this article are the 35 questions the author has asked himself over the years to help maintain an awareness of who he is, and why he does/doesn't do things, interact with certain people etc. So in order to get a clearer glimpse at the "man in the mirror" I will, over the next 35 days as myself these questions as honestly as humanly possible. I figure if I do a blog about it I will have to hold myself accountable for answering the questions each day. (FYI: the questions are separated into categories: Self Awareness, Happiness / Peace of Mind, Perspective, Influence / Achievement, Business / Entrepreneurship, Catch-All).

 Self-Awareness

What am I pretending not to know? To be perfectly honest, I pretend not to know quite a bit. (Hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil) The main reason is because I don't want to get caught up in any mess or foolishness that results from "knowing to much." (Or at least this is the excuse that I use to justify it to myself) But specifically things I pretend not to know: How I feel about certain people (normally in a romantic context), how people feel about me (also, usually in a romantic context), how I should make amends (make things right with people I have wronged, usually this is a woman), people look to me for guidance, encouragement, approval, inspiration (I try to stay low key but when others see you as a source for something positive and good they tend to put you on a pedestal - normally this is unintentional - and I don't like disappointing people because I can't live up to their grand expectations), what (romantic) love is (how to receive it, how to give it, how to recognize it), that people depend on me (I enjoy helping people and truly giving of myself - pouring into others - however I shy away from the thought that others depend on me for x, y, and/or z. This is because sometimes I get into my selfish mode and want to do what I want to do because I want to do it. But that selfishness is inhibited when you have others depending on you to always come through.